Here & Hereafter 2

5.  The Deathwalk
6.  Fags And Dignity
7.  Who's Gonna Remember Me..?

The most enlightened communities have always comprehended that there was the present life, the act of death and the hereafter.

5.   The Deathwalk

1.  In Shamanic cultures, Buddhism, Hinduism, ancient Egypt, Inca and Maya there is the practice of the “deathwalk”. On a person’s deathbed, an intermediary stays with them, entering into a meditative trance-like state to accompany the deceased’s spirit to the other side and then return, having safely delivered them into the Light. It is one of the most noble acts a person could do, a mark of the utmost respect and dignity to the person passing over. 

6.   Fags and Dignity

1.  Fags constantly clamour for dignity only to degrade each other - whether online or to their face, or behind their backs. How many little deaths must a fag endure in his “community”? Is his buffed bod just an armor plating for a whimpering spirit cowering in the recesses of a wounded psyche?  

2.  An outrageous claim fags make is that they are a “community”. That’s a lie. A “community” implies cohesion. How can there be cohesion when the community consists of so many individually wounded, fractured psyches? FuelMix has often been left speechless at the numbers of deeply lonely, sexually abused, fundamentally unhappy fags, some quite young, for whom living in Fagland (either as a postal code or a state of mind) is a daily accumulation of financial, social and emotional degradation culminating in a fundamental lack of self-worth. 

3.  There’s no doubt those are the walking wounded and the living dead. Where is that special person who will guide them through their “deathwalk”, that long night of the soul when incessant Fagland pain finally transfigures them into someone stronger, more noble, more resilient, more at peace with themselves...? 

4.  Anonymity, casual social and sexual encounters are touted as the norm in Fagland. But maybe the norm is the perversion. The frenetic superficiality takes its toll. Nobody says what they mean. Nobody means what they say. So how much is an obituary for a dead fag really worth...? 

7.   Who's Gonna Remember Me....?

1.  Maybe Obituary TV (as mentioned in Here And Hereafter 1) isn't such a bad idea. It  might encourage fags to record something other than their genitals.  Maybe Obituary TV is technology’s clumsy way of returning to the myth of the sacred – the reverence for one’s life, the life of others and the life beyond. 

2.  Maybe Obituary TV is the wake-up call to all of us to polish up the Resume of our lives – something that we can live by, point to and be proud of. Perhaps Gay Pride of the future will not just be a global festival for the circuit party boy or the carnival float queen, but the commemoration of Legacy for the gay lives that have gone before. 

3.  Nobody wants to feel forgotten.  Nobody wants to feel irrelevant.  Nobody wants to feel degraded. Nobody wants to die anonymous. The fag’s hedonistic lifestyle of amnesia-inducing anonymous sex, may be the cheap substitute – and the very antithesis - for what his spirit quietly craves....authentic intimacy, acceptance, honesty, trust and surrender.

 4.  They don’t call an orgasm “the little death” for nothing.  It’s the closest the lonely gay man comes to dying in someone’s arms.  

Originally published 20 December 2007.  

Amended and republished 6 February 2012 | 7 January 2014 | 25 December 2017

 
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