Nigga Fag's Rage
FuelMix dropped in to the University of Fag Bar (pending accreditation) to catch up with the usual underwhelming undergraduates. He was introduced to a nigga fag, visiting from God’s Own Country. FuelMix and the nigga fag bantered and laughed for a while.
Then nigga fag turned serious. He asked whether FuelMix was aware of a named sauna in white Fagland. FuelMix rolled his eyes and asked why. Nigga fag lowered his voice. He had gone there looking for action only to be totally shunned by the clientele.
Nigga fag said it was a fundamental unspoken contempt for his colour, a hatred that was invisible, implicit yet very palpable. They would not acknowledge him, greet him, or speak to him. As the only black dude there, they would leave the steam room when he entered or vacate the jacuzzi when he stepped in. When he’d walk down the corridors cruising the rooms with open doors, they would simply switch off the lights as he came by and switch them on again when he’d gone past. They would not do that when a white fag walked by.
FuelMix listened quietly. Nigga fag’s voice was softer but he was shaking with rage. He sighed and looked away. There was silence.
Then he said, “I am a nigga, man. I’m born nigga. I’m as black as black gets. Ain’t nothing gonna change that. I’m just another dude. They can’t see past my colour, so they treat me like shit. I didn’t come to this city to be treated like that. I’m never coming back here”. Hie eyes teared up. He lowered his head. There was a long silence.
FuelMix, fiercely proud of his foreign heritage, quietly replayed the number of times he too had been on the receiving end of white Fagland’s finest manners.
Originally published 2 August 2006
Amended and Republished 16 September 2011
FUEL INJECTED MALE 5 YEARS 2006 - 2011
Then nigga fag turned serious. He asked whether FuelMix was aware of a named sauna in white Fagland. FuelMix rolled his eyes and asked why. Nigga fag lowered his voice. He had gone there looking for action only to be totally shunned by the clientele.
Nigga fag said it was a fundamental unspoken contempt for his colour, a hatred that was invisible, implicit yet very palpable. They would not acknowledge him, greet him, or speak to him. As the only black dude there, they would leave the steam room when he entered or vacate the jacuzzi when he stepped in. When he’d walk down the corridors cruising the rooms with open doors, they would simply switch off the lights as he came by and switch them on again when he’d gone past. They would not do that when a white fag walked by.
FuelMix listened quietly. Nigga fag’s voice was softer but he was shaking with rage. He sighed and looked away. There was silence.
Then he said, “I am a nigga, man. I’m born nigga. I’m as black as black gets. Ain’t nothing gonna change that. I’m just another dude. They can’t see past my colour, so they treat me like shit. I didn’t come to this city to be treated like that. I’m never coming back here”. Hie eyes teared up. He lowered his head. There was a long silence.
FuelMix, fiercely proud of his foreign heritage, quietly replayed the number of times he too had been on the receiving end of white Fagland’s finest manners.
Originally published 2 August 2006
Amended and Republished 16 September 2011
FUEL INJECTED MALE 5 YEARS 2006 - 2011
Copyright 2011 FuelMix All Rights Reserved
Makes you wonder about all the 'Pride' out there, and what will take place this weekend in the same sauna.
ReplyDeleteIts pathetic.
If it's true, then apartheid is alive and well in gay culture - ironic considering how loudly they bitch about "diversity".
ReplyDeleteAs you pointed out, the worst thing about this kind of racism is that it is invisible, implied yet very real. Even if the management were sympathetic nothing could be done. It's that feeling of being deliberately but invisibly degraded that is so awful - in any setting. I know exactly where that black dude was coming from.
ReplyDeletei think the reason it's so visibly-invisible is that fags are benefiting from controlling they scene. white folks act and don't name, whereas non-white folx gotta name our treatment or otherwise go crazy. then we called "uppity" or "angry".
ReplyDelete"diversity" just another words for colonization. people have always been "diverse".