Bottle It & Sell It

One of the quirks about being good looking, is the reaction FuelMix gets from fags and the insight he obtains as to the paradigms in which they’re operating – or more usually, in which they’re trapped.

Through good genetics, clean living, a drug-free life and a diligent fitness regimen, FuelMix has ended up looking far younger than his contemporaries.

For fags seeking a quick suck/fuck, with the added fantasy boost of an exotic muscled jockboy, FuelMix has no shortage of propositions. By definition, anonymous sex is not big on personal details.

But where a fag is hunting around for something more meaningful and runs into FuelMix, a different – and often vicious – reaction kicks in when fag discovers that he and FuelMix are about the same age. Immediately, fag feels threatened and turns defensive. FuelMix is accused of lying in some fashion or being a hustler.

Initially, fag’s venom didn’t make any sense, but on reflection, made perfect sense. This blog has said before that fags are terrified of ageing and that lying about one’s age is not only de rigeur in Fagland, but accepted as an inevitability.

Thanks to gay media’s pervasive influence, there’s a saturation portrayal of the forever young, 20-something, sexually inexhaustible, testosterone-fuelled jock. That portrayal has created a paradigm that is both purposeful and paradoxical.

It serves a purpose because it’s the criteria by which subconsciously or consciously, many men are judged for fantasy or for casual sex. It’s erotic, fun, provides a masturbatory scenario or a real time hook up. At some level it’s the ideal to which fags aspire, whether they want to admit it or not. Gay media has done a fine job of influencing behaviour.

But that “forever young” paradigm is a paradox when assessing long term compatibility. Fixated on the fantasy of virility and youthfulness, when a fag is confronted with a dude about his own age who kept his looks, his body and his brains. better than them, the venom spits out fast. The fag feels threatened, insecure, inferior.

The incredulous fag crashed headlong into his own paradigm, faced with the uncomfortable acknowledgement that fantasy can meet reality. The fantasy by definition is supposed to be short-lived and ephemeral. When he’s looking for a potential Significant Other, what the hell is he doing staring at the fantasy?

The fag’s venom is nothing more than self-loathing – a frustrated recognition that, despite being about the same age, the other dude’s youthful bod and brains has completely outclassed the fag’s ability to exploit or dominate a potential relationship.

(The good news is that FuelMix is not in the market).

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